*sigh* Dave seems far from me.  He txted me hi, I replyed with a question and then he didn't answer.  So about an hour ago, 6 hrs after he had sent me hi, I txted him that I missed him.  Because I do... and I was hopeing for him to be there for me when Christine left.  But I had totally forgotten that he was going into erie for the weekend to see his mom graduate college.  Any how he said he was sorry that I missed him.  *He doesn't miss me...* *tear* it can't be as bad as that sounds to me. He speaks the truth and I'm sure he's having fun with friends and the thought of me hasn't come into his mind... or somthing. I'm just being pmsy... I'm moody and easily put into a fret over things just before and just after my period. but I'm still fretting over it.

 

Besides Dave has to deal with his mother while he's home there.  The woman was drunk the other night and hit Dave's sister, her child.  I'm finding myself not likely her in anyway. Even with all the trouble Dave is going through right now I can't help but feel neglected.  He did txt me hi.... he could've not txted me atall... still i wish he would talk to me more... he gives me so many blank answers without explainations.  I want to be next to him, and I want him to want me there next to him....    Oh life why are you so full of stupid feelings that make the world so udderly complicated.  Because life wouldn't be worth living then would it? *shakes head*

 

*grumbles* grumbles* grumbles* I'm afraid I'm never going to find a job out here.  I was lucky with 7-11 back home.  And when I think about after college my stomache takes leaps.  I still need to get into the whole praxis business.. It's so stupid.  Registration is made out to be as difficult as possible. It's so stupid. I'm this close to throwing it all away and goign on that hitch hiker trip. *sigh* Damn IT!!!

 

This is why I need consistent projects and friends arround me so I don't fall into this bordom that casts me into depression.